Miss Nikki Says ...

The ramblings of "Miss Nikki"

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The other day I woke up earlier than usual. This was because my boyfriend came into the bedroom asking quite loudly, “Where’s the Orajel, hun?”

I knew I remembered saying goodbye to him already this morning, and when I rolled over and looked at the clock I realized if he was getting ready for work he was going to be late at that point. After getting out of bed and finding the orajel, he told me he had already been on his way to work and had to turn around because he had a toothache so bad that he could hardly keep his eyes open to drive.

A couple hours and a couple hundred dollars later, he had a badly decayed tooth pulled out, and is now thankfully feeling better.

He is the strongest guy I know, and it was so strange to see him in such pain. I’m glad we managed to get him into the dentist quickly. Gotta get him on my dental plan soon.

Hope everyone had a good day. :-) Brush your teeth!

Have you ever been called a piece of shit by your own parent? Please tell me I'm not alone ... I feel like crawling in a hole and sleeping forever. I will never call my precious baby a piece of shit no matter what they do. 

Why do I limit myself? I keep asking myself that this morning. 

For example, while on my job search this morning I found the perfect job for me. Four days a week, great salary and benefits, basically doing play/art therapy with children, which I am qualified to do. The catch? "Must have valid BC driver's license and reliable vehicle with business insurance." Now, if I knew how to drive I'm sure I could figure out the damn business insurance stuff myself, and I'd be set to apply for the job. 

My psychologist says that learning how to drive and obtaining my license will help me feel less limited to what I can and cannot do, and will give me even more of a sense of courage, or belief in myself. I hope she is right! 

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Went to my step-sister-in-law's baby shower today. Felt almost on the verge of a panic attack just before going there because I haven't gotten outta the house in awhile since I lost my job. I did go to the fair the other day with my mom, but even then I don't have to interact with anyone I don't want to so it's all good. 

But when it comes to family it comes to small talk and I hate that. I'd be fine just sitting and not talking and observing but then people think you are weird or rude for not making small talk. After we arrived and I saw her baby though, all was okay. The baby was adorable and just made me want my own even more. LoL as usual. 

Anywhoo friends, since I am unemployed currently perhaps you can help me on my new ventures. (I can use all the support I can get!) 

I started a website called Pet Health Care Tips (http://pethealthcaretips.weebly.com) so give it a look if you have some time, maybe leave a comment or an FB like or Google+1 thingy on it.

Also, I am doing hand made stationery (cards, envelopes, writing paper, etc. etc.) with embossing (process of stamping with ink, putting crazy powders over the ink and heating it up so it looks beautiful like this: 
For more samples and to order you can see my other website at http://TheWritingShoppe.weebly.com

ALSO if you have a business or just want to advertise to my twitter followers then you can do so for just $2 per tweet. You get to write your own 140 character ad as well. To do that, you can go here: http://www.pay4tweet.com/buy.php?r=10835

Have a good weekend!

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I haven't posted in awhile because I recently lost my job and was very depressed about it; however, I now realize it was a huge blessing in disguise. I have not been happy doing my job for a long time and now I can find something different. I am currently looking for work-from-home stuff but a lot of it is scam crap. Any help or ideas would be appreciated.

I was abruptly "dismissed" from my job a couple weeks back and told my "contract would not be renewed" and that was about it. I thought I would be there until I had a baby, and then stop working. That's not going to pan out. If I can't find a way to work from home for now I am thinking of applying at the library or the book store because I just love literature. That's all I can think of that I might enjoy doing for awhile. No more working with kids - I love the kids but the parents are harsh and not fun to deal with these past couple years. 

Hope everyone is well and happy. 

So, I was "terminated" from my job the other day. In a way it's a good thing because that job stressed me to the max, but now I am unemployed and my boyfriend is working at a job that may not be permanent.

This kind of makes me feel like my plans of a house and baby are put on the back burner for now. 

Now it is really time to find out a way to work from home. If anyone has ideas for me, feel free to comment or send a message. 

In the mean time I will apply for employment insurance, and my severance pay should last for a bit ... 

I'm a Stay at Home Rat Mom now! 

I'm wide awake.
Things have been stressful lately at work. I'm really not very happy with what I am doing anymore and soon I think I need to figure out a way to work from home. Travelling to and from work, even though it is not very far at all, is really starting to get to me. Getting up at 5:30 every morning also doesn't allow for much sleeping time. 

I think my stress level is also due to lowering my medications this year. With my doctor I have been slowly decreasing the amount of anti depressant/anxiety meds that I take to prepare myself for pregnancy in the future and to get myself to stop being so dependant on it. 

Could be why.

That's all for now. 

I have been nursing a bad lower back for the majority of this long weekend. Have taken Robaxacets.  Motrin Extra Strengths. Heated bag positioned on my back. Rubbed Voltaren on it. Nothing seems to work. So now I'm sitting in bed after attempting to do some chores and getting zero appreciation for it. Okay, now I'm just whining.

Nothing too exciting this weekend which is fine by me. Quiet and (mostly) relaxing, how I like it. 

Hope everyone had a nice Canada Day yesterday. =)

Its just emotion takin me over
Ugh. Hard morning. I burst into tears at the drop of a hat. Feeling better since I arrived to the distraction of work. How is everyone else doing?

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"We're all stories in the end..."
"We're all stories in the end..." 

I'm having a bad day depression and anxiety wise. Well, I suppose it's my own choice to feel this way right? I felt fine all morning. Then I had a performance review at work and some criticisms were given, and now I feel like shit. I could choose to get over it, stop thinking about it and just move on, but I'm not. 

When I first got into the profession of childhood education I never considered how my style of teaching could be criticized and broken down bit by bit by every one of my employers. I also never knew how hard the job itself actually would be. I have been doing this almost 6 years now and I am feeling like I am burnt out big time. Believe it or not, it's not easy to work with 40+ kids 8 hours a day without an off-site break. 

It may be time for a career change. I cannot continue to maintain my mental health if I keep at it much longer, I don't think...

I want to be healthy and stress free when I finally do decide to get pregnant. I've always said I would stop working in daycare and preschool settings when I had my own, so it may be time to think about what my next job might look like. 


In other news, I am looking for people who are also dealing with TMJ (temporomandibular joint disorder) and how they deal with it? There's got to be more than just muscle relaxants and not chewing gum/eating crunchy/chewy foods.... If you don't know what TMJ is check out tmj_care


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